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Thursday, January 31, 2008

oh, the drama

Over at my Multiply blog, I said:

Years and years after discovering the wonderful world of the world wide web, I have lost my appetite for everything cyberspace.

I want to delete EVERYTHING. =/


Hah. I don't know why I just lost interest. Maybe I need something new or a kick to get me writing again on my blog. I really miss blogging the way I used to. Maybe it's my stupid DSL connection. My ISP has been acting crazy lately, going on and off because of a supposed "problem" that occured overseas. Something like that. I didn't understand the automated message when I called the Customer Service Hotline. I can't even log on my Yahoo Messenger because I'd get kicked out every other few minutes. It's crazy!

Anyway, I'M TIRED. Like really TIRED. It was my fourth day of driving lessons today and I finally tried driving through EDSA. Commonwealth and Quezon City Circle were two days ago and today it was EDSA. I just realized how tiring it is to drive a manual car. People keep saying that it'll be a lot easier when I switch to automatic. Well, it better be! But I'm getting the hang of it. My instructors think that I'm fast learner. Ooooohyeah! And the funniest thing was that I wasn't scared driving along scary EDSA on my first try. I also learned parking today. I need more practice with that. Anyway, lets hope my fearsome self won't be scared into the dark when I try EDSA all by myself WITHOUT THE INSTRUCTOR.

So yeah. That's they only thing new with me.

I can't wait 'til Feb.9 when I'll meet up with my college friends for good ol' college fun. Yeeepeeeee!

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

overlooking the horizon where the sky meets the sea


pagudpud, ilocos norte
holga 135bc

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alone


pagudpud, ilocos norte
holga 135bc

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Tuesday, January 22, 2008

on sacrifices

Life isn't fair. Whoever said it was didn't know what they were talking about.

We make decisions everyday. We make choices-- some are easy to make and some are difficult. Each choice we make has a consequence. We ALWAYS give up something in return for the choice we make-- great or small. We sacrifice something to get what we want and we never win both ways. We never can. On rare occassions, we do win on both occassions but sometimes WHILE WE WIN, SOMEONE ELSE or SOMETHING ELSE is sacrificed for the choice we made. I first learned about the concept of "trade-off" from my Econ class in college. That's what trade-off is all about-- when we choose something, we give up something else.

It seems pretty trivial but when you apply it to the concept of life, it gets frustrating. Why can't we just win both ways so that everyone's happy and nobody loses? But that's life, I guess. We need to make choices and sometimes in the process of making choices, we hurt people along the way. I'm sure it is not our intention to hurt them. Sometimes hurting someone is inevitable. Sometimes we just need to set our priorities straight and priority no.1 always loses over no.2.

That's why the phrase "I have no choice" is not acceptable. We all have choices and it's just that we can never win both ways. One way or the other you have to sacrifice something. One of the saddest realities of life: we cannot have it all.

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Monday, January 21, 2008

strange and complicated



"Sometimes it feels like we're all living in some kind of prison, and the crime is how much we hate ourselves. And it's good to get dressed up every once in awhile and admit the truth. That when you look really closely, people are so strange and so complicated that they're actually beautiful. Possibly even me."
Angela Chase, My So Called Life (I love love love that show)

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a photo of my soul



If I were to describe myself in one photo, I'd pick this picture.
It's psychedelic, it's colorful, it's dark, it's expressive, it's...complicated.
Notice that there are to contrasts in the photo-- the bright fuschia on the left and the dark hues on the right.
My soul is like that, I am bright and perky with a mix of strange different colors.
There is a dark side too but the lighter side of my soul outshines the darker counterpart.
I don't remember what I was thinking when I took this photo but I think I captured my soul.

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down time



Won't you come sit with me
Over a good conversation and iced coffee?

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highy, up, fly


High, up, fly,
into the cloudy sky.

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the age of innocence


We were once children, you and me
We get older by numbers but in spirit?
Children is what we will always be.

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Saturday, January 19, 2008

massive photo update


my titos from the meat shop opening.


HAHA! project kung project. Pero candid 'to haha.

this is my favorite from the LCA batch. =)


LOOK AT MY EYES! PARANG BANLAG YUNG ISA. HAHAHAHA! SCARRRYYYY.



I stopped shooting film for a while because over 10 rolls of film were accumulated from november to january and I'm also running out of slide film. I dropped of the 10 rolls at Digiprint three days ago and this morning I woke up extra early (THINK 6AM!) because I woke up from my deep sleep and remembered that the LBC guy was scheduled to deliver my processed film and CDS (Digiprint processes them, scans them to CD, and then delivers it to your doorstep via LBC). At 7AM the LBC delivery guy called and said that he was going to drop off the packages at 7.30AM so I didn't go back to sleep. I WAITED...AND WAITED...AND WAITED...until 8AM. Then YEY!!! My processed film and CDS have arrived!

But it took me about 30 minutes to figure out why my DVD/CD drive won't read my CDs. I was so frustrated that I searhed the internet for troubleshooting a problem such as this. But LO AND BEHOLD! I decided to clean the CD drive-- wiped the CD tray and the laser thing that reads CDs and VOILA! It started spinning. AHHH...the sound was music to my ears.

Here are snippets:


Pagudpud Lovin'












Looking at these photos and feeling happy again made me remember why I exert so much time, energy, and MONEY for this hobby-- lo-fi photography, better known as, LOMOGRAPHHY-- there are no words to explain how good it is to have the power to freeze time and make ART with such a cheap plastic camera and a roll of film.

More photos over at my Multiply:
1. The Great LCA Tryout (Russian LCA)
2. Pagudpud Part 1 (Holga 135bc)
3. Pagudpud Part 2 (Vivitar PNE2011)
4. Holga Lovin' (Holga CFN 120)
5. First Track Day @ Subic International Raceway, SBMA (Vivitar PNE2011 and Holga 135bc)

Boo, nag-expire na Flickr Pro account ko. =/

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Thursday, January 17, 2008

Due to insistent (father's) demand, I shall blog even if I have no idea what to blog about. Wahaha.

Today was "zombie day". I had a migraine attack last night until mid-day today, which was annoying because naturally it made me sleep shallow. I wasn't able to sleep well so I floated through the day like a ZOMBIE. I tried so hard to perk myself up with instant coffee for lunch (with food, of course) and then a can of Coke when I dropped by the meat shop (Monterey Kapitolyo) with Alej and his mother.

Better now. Ibuprofen or Mefenamic Acid usually does the trick and yes I am aware that Ibuprofen can soupify my organs. So believe me when I say that I try my very best to make medication as my last resort.

Apple texted this afternoon and told me that Mitchie is coming home next month. We're going to meet up since I haven't seen Mitchie-poo for almost over a year I think. Anyway, she's based in Singapore now so I really miss her. I suggested that we meet up at Robinson's Place (aka U.P. Manila's Student Center Extension) just like the good old days when we'd have lunch there every single day. So I can't wait! We'll have lunch, a movie, and then coffee afterwards. Ayayay! I hope the rest of the gang can join us like Aj, Simoun, Sceldskee, Pao P. and Vanesh. You know, the good 'ol people that I used hang out with in college? Hayyy...bakit ganun parang ang tagal na!

Also, I'm getting the LCA on Saturday. HOLY COWWWWWWWWWW. THIS IS ITTTT!!!!

That's it. I'm going to hit the sack now.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

UP 100

When I started in U.P. I was skeptical. I felt that I was undeserving and that I wouldn't be able to face the challenge of being with the best students from all over the Philippines. But I was a fighter and I bravely took on whatever challenges that lay ahead even if it meant sacrificing my (then) non-existent social life.

I was right about the challenges, right to be afraid of being with the best, and right to be scared out of my wits to fail my expectations and people's expectations of myself. But I fought on and I surprised myself by having FUN in the process. I made great friends with my blockmates, went to every rock concert the school's organizations /sororoties/fraternities held, and went to every possible event there was in the college world in and outside the University.

But before I elaborate more on the FUN part, I want to talk about academics. My father said (not once but twice) that the REAL heroes are the U.P. professors as well as other public school teachers who share their knowledge to their students even if they are underpaid. The REAL heroes are the U.P. professors who still choose to teach despite being offered by prestigious/elite universities with big fat paychecks and benefits to boot. The REAL heroes are the U.P. professors who have pledged their loyalty to the University even if there are other opportunities to teach abroad. And I couldn't agree with my father any better. I was a witness to the heroic deeds of my U.P. professors. I can't tell you how much I think they're brilliant, awesome, spectacular, and everything else because they they're just....BRILLIANT. I like how everything wasn't spoon-fed. I like how a lecture would only seem like they're telling stories of history or how they seem like they're talking about the most interesting thing in the world even if they're talking about somewhat "ordinary" things. Their enthusiasm for what they do and what they teach is overwhelming and infectious. While there are "terror professors", each one of them left a mark on me and I still learned a lot from them. Not just in academics but in other aspects as well. I learned so much from my professors during my stay. I enjoyed every single bit of sem and even if I hated math with a passion and how it almost ruined my life, I only laugh about it now because EXPERIENCE IS THE BEST TEACHER.

I miss my UP professors who know so much about current events that they'll make you ooh-and-ahh on every trivia or conspiracy theory they know of. I loved my Econ series: ECON101, ECON114, AND ECON115 and made sure that I picked the particular professor who made my last few sems in the University worth the stay. You can't come to class without studying. You can't come to class without participating in graded recitations, everyday quizzes, and everyday trivias. Everything was graded but the learning experience wasn't like being dictated by a Nazi. It was a fun learning environment and because all the current events and topics in development studies interested me, I did well in his class. I learned so much from those last few semesters. While I was warned that I had to be prepared for "toxic" workload because of the materials we had to read, the prescribed readings, and the graded recitations, I'm glad I still enrolled in his classes because all the hard work was worth it. Not because I got the grades that I wanted but because of the amount of knowledge I was able to absorb.

Happy Centennial, U.P.!
UP 100 na, Congratulations! =)
There's a SMS quote that says: UP does not accept THE BEST, THE GREAT, OR THE WISE...U.P. MAKES THEM.

I wasn't able to go to the kick-off celebration of UP 100 the other day but I did get to see photos and photos of the spectacular fireworks display. Sayang.

I can go on forever and ever and gush about how much I love UP, how much I grew, and how much I learned from my education there. I'm braver now and I'd like to think I'm wiser too.

If there's one thing I can be proud of, it's the fact that I AM A MAROON. I GRADUATED FROM U.P. =)

I finally called driving schools to inquire for lessons and I already picked one. All I need is to enroll myself and I'm all set. I know everyone drives automatic these days but I want to learn manual. I can't wait! I'm going to follow everything on my New Year's list except for going to gym, maybe. Haha! I'm too laaaaazy. I'll stick with Hip Hop Abs first. Yesssss I got a dvd of it. I got it from Ruins.

Have you been to the malls lately? It's crazzzyyyy. EVERYONE'S ON SALE! =/ UGHHH. TOPSHOP, ZARA, PROMOD, DOROTHY PERKINS, KAMISETA, BAYO....EVERYONEEE!!

Oh, I like Britney Spears' new video, Pieces of Me. I actually like her. I bought her first album on casette tape (!!!) when I was in freshman high school. I memorized every track and liked her bubblegum image. I feel sorry for her for being the victim of crazy paparazzos, tabloids, and entertainment shows that are always on the look-out for more Britney Spears misdemeanor. It's like they're always on the lookout for her to make mistakes. I can't blame her for going bonkers. She was raised to be a puppet entertainer and it's disheartening to see how broken she is these days. It must be crazy to live her life. I hope she helps herself too. It's crazy everything is falling apart. I hope she picks the pieces up and move on with her life and make something good out of it.

I'm blabbing. Kk, I'll go now.

Monday, January 7, 2008

post-holiday woes

If there's a "pre Holiday blues", I bet there's a "post Holiday woes" too! Let me show you my point:

I'm pretty sure I gained a ridiculous amount of weight from ridiculously eating too much for the holidays-- my sick sad excuse for stuffing my face with anything that's edible. Haha. Maybe not. But I HAVE been eating a lot since Christmas. I love food, what can I do if I eat a lot?

Anyway, Christmas and the New Year is over. I should be back to my "normal" eating habits-- like eat only during meals!

Hours after dinner I'm still stuffed from my dinner of shrimp tempura, yakimeshi rice, and the new Laksa with Crispy Porkchop noodle soup from Pao Tsin. I just had that last night for dinner and I craved it again today. It's yummy, I tell you. If you love Asian food as much as I do then you'll like the Laksa noodle soup from Pao Tsin. I'm not being biased because of Tito Jon but IT'S REALLY REALLY GOOD and CHEAP too!

I really want to stay healthy this year but why is it so hard to even BEGIN to stay healthy? Ughhh.

Friday, January 4, 2008

first blog for 2008



HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Yesterday I received the best New Year's message ever from the greatest writer to ever walk the planet, Neil Gaiman:

"May your 2008 be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful.
And don't forget to make some art: write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can.
And I hope somewhere next year you surprise yourself."


Anything he says is MAGIC. I hope he knows that. This quote just totally made my day yesterday because it's exactly the way I want to live this year and all the other years ahead.

This is pretty late. Haha! Hey look! It's my first post for 2008! Four years of blogging. WOW.

Anyway, my New Year was well spent with family and friends. On New Year's eve it was with family (Tito Ninong, Tito John, Tito Boyce, Mommy and Daddy) and then after Medya Noche it was with friends (Rad, Hans, Egy, and Erica and Alej too). So yeah. We had our annual fire works "competition" against that big yellow house across the street. And WE WON THIS YEAR! HAHA! It was so much fun. The not-so fun part was when some of the flakes from the fireworks got into my left eye. I had to run into the house I was so scared I'd go blind or something.

And then on New Year's Day Kuya John's parents invited Alej and I to their celebration/family dinner. It was fun especially after that when we went to BF Paranaque and food-tripped on Hot Shots cheeseburger and potato wedges and then shawarma after. Whew. The holidays. It was all about eating!

Here are photos:








More photos at my Multiply. =)

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