still standing

I used to be a mad blogger. "Used to be", being the operative words. I've stopped doing a lot of things that I used to do when I had all the time on my hands. They say idle time is the devil's playground. I say idle time is good for free spirits like me.

But all is well. I've been busy with a lot of things-- both on my social calendar and on my school calendar. My clinical duty has been tiring but rewarding. It's been such a great learning experience that sometimes it's overwhelming to take them all in especially when I start questioning myself if I'd be a good nurse one day. But then I'd catch myself smiling because I know I will be because I want to be. It's not a career choice anymore but it's a CALLING-- something that I feel like I was meant to be. I feel a natural high when I interact with my patients. I feel giddy when I'm in a hospital, listening to my clinical instructor lecture. I'd ask myself, "Am I really here? Did I really take this gigantic leap to finally do what I've always wanted to do?". It's a good feeling, really-- to be happy because you're right where you're supposed to be.

There may be quite big bumps on the road, all is not rosey over this side of my garden but I have enormous faith that things will work themselves out. I have a belief that if things are meant to be, they will fall into the right places.

I just want to live life and be happy, that's all. And I hope you are too, wherever you are in this world.