this afternoon i woke up in a dreamy state with a smile on my face. then i remembered that the sun was setting and i'd have to study tonight for a long exam tomorrow. plus, i haven't written that essay for Navarro's class on the question "Why Am I What I Am Right Now?". it's like in Sophie's World when the unknown sender of letters wrote to Sophie to ask "Who Are You?". only, we're supposed to write this essay to go back to our personal histories and understand who we are today. pretty interesting, i tell you. the thing is, i don't think just a page of short bond paper is enough for me to write about who i am and why i am like this. i am confused and the words on who i am are just overflowing that i don't know where to start. it's supposed to be handwritten. it's a psychological thing, he said. i think he studied psychology and handwriting tells a lot about a person. i wonder what he'll see when he reads my essay?

back in high school, my Values Education teacher was lecturing when she looked me straight in the eye (i was in front row) and said something really straightforward (and very accurate) that it caught me off-guard. i asked her, "how did you know?" and she smiled this mischievous grin and said..."dear, you're as clear as crystal." that scared me to the bones. what did she see? people are predictable, i know. in Starting Over, Ronda said that people try with their utmost efforts to conceal their real identities. they wear a mask to hide who they really are but what they don't know is that people know what you're trying to pull off. that's scary, right?

speaking of psychology, i used to think i wanted to take up psych in college. i already had a slot at DLSU when i backed out. the human mind intrigues me. people are so complicated and different that it's actually interesting to find out how their minds work. speaking of psych, there's this workshop by the Psychiatric Ward at the PGH (Philippine General Hospital) for UP Pahinungod Hospice Care Volunteers. the workshops are on counselling, management of grief, and stress management. i so want to go. i'm hoping that i'll have the heart to skip one class because it coincides with this 8am-11am workshop. besides, how will i be an effective hospice care volunteer if i have no training whatsoever on counselling? plus, stress management sounds really inviting because i need it for myself too.