i feel like crap

i'm not feeling well. i'm woozy and i feel like lying in bed all night until tomorrow morning. it looks like the typhoon is staying for two more days. i like the gray skies on rainy days but definitely not the rain and squishy, muddy, feet. today i battled the fierce winds again (haha i sound so great!) because it was so strong that i swear if i were a little lighter i would've been literally carried away by it.

i am currently engrossed in surfing this website. aren't the pictures something? they bring out the subjects in great pictures.

i just talked with my father today. he was asking if i'm still using my old Nikon digicam. then he asked if i was okay with it. it think he was indirectly asking me if i wanted a new one but the shy side of me held back not wanting to say, "YEAH, I WANT A NEW ONE!" but yeah, i guess i'll just stick with my old digicam and ask for another one when the right time comes. besides, i love my old digicam.

okay bye. i'm still not feeling well.

rediscovered my ♥ for piano

i'm such a sad case. last night i went to bed early because i have a 7 AM class today. i'm so stupid. i wasn't able to sleep until it was 4 AM! my alarm went off at 4 AM when i wasn't even asleep yet and at 4 AM i got all groggy and tired for staying up all night so i went to bed. then i fell into such a deep sleep that i thought i'd stay home because the professors might not show up again. however, my blockmates said they showed up and checked attendance. oh well. i guess i'll have to never be absent again so that i'll only have one absence.

i'm still groggy. i hate my sleeping habits. i can't sleep early now because of summer vacation and all. on the bright side, i did something productive. i downloaded piano music sheets so that i can play piano again. i got:

1. 100 years (i love the song. i can play it now but i still need practice)
2. The Voice Within ( this one's a little hard but it jus takes practice too)
3. My Immortal (for now i can only play the first part because it's freaking hard haha! but it's so good to play!)

okay now back to my keyboard :) whee! this is so much fun. i'm rekindling with my old pianist spirit. i took up piano for 8 years so yes, i can read music sheets. i'm rusty, though. i lack practice. i stopped in high school. i have to start playing again so i won't forget the lessons.

haha i'm such a geek. g'bye!

reconciliation with Eraserheads and Harper Lee

i'm listening to the Eraserheads: Anthology burnt cd that my sister's boyfriend gave me because he knows that i like the old songs of Eraserheads. it was ripped from the original copy that kuya John bought so don't hate me if it's just burnt rather than original :) i also remember his friend popping an old Eraserheads cd (kuya John said it's a pirated compilation of their songs) when we roadtripped to Tagaytay. i want to borrow that and burn it myself.

it's sad how they don't play music like they used to now. since Kris came, i lost interest. i did not pay attention to them when they were still the old group. maybe because i knew that they were just going to be there so i just "appreciated" their songs rather than actually loving them. i like With A Smile the most because it's something you'd listen to on a rainy day (rainy, meaning during hard times and all but it can be literally too Ü).

i like the album. they're feel-good songs for me especially for a stressful day like today. i have blisters on my feet from standing for 2 hours while lining for late registration at school. i sweated like there's no tomorrow (of course, you didn't have to know that) and until now i haven't eaten a single meal! if you'll call a peanut butter sandwich meal, then maybe i had one already but yes, i think i'm hungry but i'm not feeling it because i had coke before i fell asleep on the couch.

oh, after i came home i was reunited with Harper Lee's To Kill A Mockingbird. i love the book and it's just sad i never got to finish it last summer (when i bought the book) because there was always something that i had to do.

it's Alias and C.S.I. night tonight :) i'm so excited haha :) two of my favorite shows. sometimes i don't know which to watch but usually i end up watching ALIAS on Studio 23 then catch the replay of CSI every Sundays at noon on AXN.

okay bye!

New layout again. yes, i do have a life other than this.

new lay out again, folks! i guess this is the last change because school just started and soon i'm going to be a busy bee again. oh well. i like Avril. so shoot me =P

hay nako. this hobby is really addictive. i can't stop making lay-outs and i'm so crazy haha :) i don't know what to say now so i'll cut this short. bye!

insignificant rants and then some

i'm sound tripping. Winamp is becoming my best friend these days. it keeps me company when i'm bored. no, i don't want to watch tv. i don't think there's anything good on cable anyway.

today was supposed to be the first day of school. first class was at 7 AM-8:30 AM but i decided not to attend because the professor most probably would be absent anyway. i was right. buti nalang i didn't go. otherwise i'd wake up at freaking 4 AM in the morning to be in school on time. this is for today only, though. i'm going to class tomorrow at 10 AM.

i'm waiting for my dinner (Jollibee chicken and spaghetti). look at the time! i haven't eaten yet. wala lang. i had a late snack at dusk so i didn't eat and now i'm hungry. i asked my sister to get food for me from Jollibee and she's not home yet.

i've been contemplating on thoughts ( that i'd rather not share ) too much. i hate days when i get really senti. then again, i was on a high this morning because of listening to gospel songs and reading the book Email from God which a friend of mine gave me for my birthday last year. it's good to be reminded that i'm being taken care of these days. it's good to find comfort in His arms.

i mass updated my deviant art. see for yourself! :)

more here: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 7, 8,and 9

i find it ironic that i find joy in doing what i do and what i really like to do, which is really way far from the course i chose. i'm happy when i take pictures and people give positive feedbacks. i find happiness in web page design (however amateurISH), photography, and writing. i wish i chose a course closely related to my passion. maybe i would've truely, genuinely, enjoyed school more.

"Design is Like a Drug .. When You Tasted .. You Want More .. More and Moree" - Bodka

(a fellow DeviantArtist who added the picture above to his favorites list. thanks, dude!)

he definitely said the right thing. it hit the spot!

just another day

today is not a stellar day. it was just another day with me being bored and all. it is no longer my habit to watch tv when i'm bored. i stay online when i'm bored. so, i got to chat with people on YM. i like chatting with people that i know than the ones that i don't know on IRC (which i do when i'm that bored & there's nowhere else to run to).

so today i changed the lay-out of my livejournal and made three new user icons just because i learned how to make dotted borderlines on Photoshop. haha. i'm such a loser. i tinker around my PC whenever i'm bored. yes, i should have taken up a course related to web design or something connected to computers.

actually, i want to be a lot of things: a writer, a web designer, a (professional) photographer, and a novelist. maybe i'll be all that. it'll just take time.

it's so great to be able to do a lot of things. i love the way i'm a computer geek- web designing, spending long hours in front of the computer and all. not everyone might agree with me but this is the way i am and i'm completely okay with that.

so bye. i'm gonna go stay away from this monster for a while before i get my eyes hurting and my head light-headed of dizziness.

one of the boys

i finally got to watch The Day After Tomorrow yesterday. the day before Richard asked if i could go to Greenbelt with him and Raul. since i had nothing to do anyway, i said i was available so yesterday i hung out with them. it was fun although i was the only girl. they somehow forgot that i was a girl because they started talking about their (multiple) girl friends. i used to not get guys and their two-timing (even five-timing!) but i don't know, i guess people have different views on relationships. so anyway, yes, i was one of the boys yesterday but i didn't mind. it was like an undercover thing that i could do to write about what guys really think when girls aren't around.

i liked the movie contrary to what people said on their Livejournals. i liked the movie because it could happen and the message of the movie was also something to digest.

i'm off to watch CSI now. then it's ALIAS. i'm really dizzy from being in front of the computer the whole day. so bye!

new (fun) lay-out

new fun lay out! this was really fun to make because it says a lot of things about me. i'm really a kid inside and i still can't get over the fact that i'm turning 19 in august. the old lay out was getting boring. i'm that way. i can't live without changing lay-outs constantly. i'm not really sure if the lay-out was up for a month or less? anyway, the tag board is gone. just sign the guestbook or comment if you have anything to say.