bawal magkasakit!

since summer started, i always have the icky and sweaty feeling during the day. no wait. even during the night! and today, it's raining. it has been raining since 6am when my mother forced me out of bed because we were going to the hospital.

yesterday i got the test results from the urinalysis and blood and 3-organ ultrasound:

good news:
1. no cysts.

bad news:
1. the right side of my kidney is enlarged because of an infection.
2. i have signs of diabetes. if tests confirm that i do have diabetes, it's going to be the insulin dependent type. also meaning that i've had it since i was born. :(
3. there are stone formations.

of all sicknesses, i have the kidney problem and diabetes kind. well, the diabetes... i was kind of prepared for it because my mom has it and she's also insulin-dependent. but i was warned that i'd have it when i hit my thirties! not 20s! so that means no to sugar and salt. but i live on sugar and salt!!! i'm addicted to sugar and salt!!! NOOOOOO! so another round of tests tomorrow morning, batangas this weekend, then the doctor again next week. hay. wattasummer. i knew it. this is the worst summer i've had in years. haha. di naman siguro. that's why i hate the hospital. it always brings me bad news. or maybe not always but MOST OF THE TIME.

i'm hoping that the results of upcoming tests come out negative for diabetes. it's a hassle disease and high maintenance too! i'd rather nurse my heart problem (excercise and engage in sports) rather than maintain a healthy lifestyle being a diabetic. the complications are just horrendous.

so today i was back because the doctor wants to make sure. blood was extracted three times for three hours. they first made me drink an orange liquid that will help measure my glucose tolerance (or something like that). this test will help confirm or rule out diabetes.

and then there's the IVP which will be done tomorrow. i need to fast (yet again...) and go on a no-meat meal which started this afternoon. i can't eat anything solid too... just soup or lugaw. worst of all... i need to force myself to gulp down a bottle of castor OIL. ohmydear! OIL. i hate swallowing OIL.

good luck to me. batangas trip cancelled for now. i need to see the doctor first.