filling the empty hole

it's amazing how ordinary people can touch people's lives and actually make a difference. friends are like a big bowl of chicken soup. they make you feel better in the inside when the world is making you sick. they are like eyeglasses. they make you see things clearly when your sight is blurry.

Angela Chase, from My So-Called Life (only the best tv show that ended so soon), said:

Sometimes someone says something really small and it just fits into this empty place in your heart.

that's what friends do, even friends that you don't know that well yet or haven't even met. this morning i must have woken up on the wrong side of the bed. i switched off the alarm clock unintentionally and slept through the time that i had alotted to get ready for my 7 AM class. as a result, i ended up not going to my classes altogether (don't ask). so i felt like crap the rest of the day cringing in guilt of skipping my classes today.

it's not just that. i thought about past frustrations, failures, and how tough it actually is to get where i want to go. a movie, a nap, and lunch later, i had a throbbing migraine and palpitations. the day turned out to be such a nightmare because of the heavy heart and the physical pain i was feeling. i felt so frustrated. i felt sad.

so i went online just to amuse myself. there weren't any dvds left for me to watch anyway. then i saw my friends online. first, it was paul. he pointed out that maybe the reason why i feel frustrated is because i'm not working on things that God had intended for me. maybe i had focused on my own plans for so long that i didn't realize how unfruitful it is when you take your eyes off what God really wants for me. so i made a pact with myself: i am going to read the bible daily now and remember how much God loves me that He won't forsake me. Paul even agreed to meet with me once a week online, just to see how i'm doing. i'm also planning to create a group blog where people can share about the verses they've read in the Bible and talk about it. let me know if you want to join. thank you, Paul. you made me feel much better.

then there was Macy. we talked about baking and our conversation made me feel good because i do enjoy baking. she shared a Mrs. Fields recipe with me and i don't know, this is just a small thing but it made me better. talking about the things you like with people who like the same thing can make a big difference when you need to be cheered up. thank you, Mace!

lastly, Vince! i shared my favorite song and it was nice talking about Amidala like she's actually a real person. Amidala is the Limcumpao's Shih-Tzu, by the way :) it felt great to gush about Alla and be proud of her weight gain. thank you, Vince!

now i'm better. i'm recharged and i'm happy!