i haven't been sleeping well lately. i don't know why, i'm scared it might develop into insomnia. i sure feel drowsey every night but when i hit the pillow i just lie there with my eyes open. minutes later i find myself coaching myself to sleep until it gets too tiring that i'm up again. i try to find things to do like watch tv or listen to music but none of that help. and then when it's dawn, i fall asleep for a few hours only to wake up to the sound of my alarm clock going off. it's annoying. and no, i do not have anything to think about that's bad enough to keep me awake. i just don't know why!

but last night was different. it broke the cycle of me not being able to sleep well. probably because i was too tired from the day. i spent hours at that humongous mall with my family and bought an adorable rubber duckie soap dish. for the first time in ages too, i actually felt like trying on and buying clothes. i'm lazy like that. i don't like trying stuff on in dressing rooms because 1.) i hate lines 2.) i'm just plain lazy. we then met up with my father at the office and i slept off the whole trip back home with my head rested on a pillow on top of my mother's lap. yes, i'm a mother's girl like that. heeh.

i hope i continue to sleep soundly for the rest of the following nights. it's exhausting to not sleep well.

i also wish i could sleep off the entire few months. wake me up when september ends. it's a cheesey emo-rock song by Green Day, i know. but they sure know what they were talking about.