random early morning encounter #1

happiness is hearing your current favorite song on the radio in the morning (in my case, it's How to Save a Life by The Fray) even if hearing it on the radio means that it's going to sell out or it's going to be overplayed until you can no longer stand it. but then the guy operating the radio inside the vehicle goes ahead and pops his cd into the player and the sound of Bone Thugs N' Harmony starts infiltrating the stiff air. the tug tug tug of the rap artists start bothering you yet it quickly changes because you begin to not mind at all. It's because How to Save a Life is still in your head-- unlike in the real world, it plays on repeat and nonstop.

on politics, econonomics, social/current events and everything else

i'm confused-- which is worse?
being naive and not knowing what's going on around you or being aware of what's going on, knowing that there's a better way and that something could be done?

let me justify:

point no.1-- if you're naive and you don't know what the hell is going on around you, you worry less and care less. you're selfish (er, in this case it might sound good) because you choose to bother about things that affect you directly. you don't care about how poor our economy is, what could be done, nor do you have a sense of nationalism. globalization? what's that? a westernized Filipino economy? yes to imperialism? sure. i'm up for it.

point no.2-- you know how bad our economy is doing, you know how the system works and you know how the system DOES NOT WORK. therefore, you have very little faith in the system and call for social and political change. you're nationalistic politically, economically, and culturally. you see the loophole and you know that there is a better way. you want to make poverty history and you know that there are ways to alleviate the suffering of the masses.

you get my point? when you're aware and you know there's a better way, it just frustrates you and gives you a big headache because you want things to be different. you want to end discrimination of the Filipino people and give Filipinos a better reputation other than people who are always hounded by political turmoil, stricken by natural calaminities, and people with a high poverty rate.

it makes me sad to KNOW and BE AWARE. studying about it makes me even sadder. but a lot happier too (i know, it confuses me too) because i owe this much to the country-- to be "in the know" and keep the fire of nationalism burning. but sometimes it's more than just knowing. perhaps influencing others who don't know with what i know may be a good idea.

so which is better? staying naive or being aware?

i think i'd rather KNOW than stay apathetic with things going on around me especially to my own country. to live is to learn and to learn is to live. right? it is complicated but who said things are easy when it comes to these things especially POLITICS?