Hoy! Pinoy ako!

screw the fact that i skipped the Bamboo concert in school last night. there's Rivermaya on the 27th and that, friends, i won't miss.

i am so glad it's finally saturday. since junior year started i only have sunday as my rest day because usually on saturdays it's either i have work for the paper (and need to be in school) or i have other things to do. today we had an educational tour at the National Historical Institute. since i stepped into UP Manila and took up Social Science (it majors in Area Studies, focusing mainly on history, economics, and political science), i became a history buff. not that i was never one in grade school and high school. i was this history buff, deeply passionate with regards to anything historical. growing up outside of the country robbed me off my thirst to learn more about my own country's history and i got that in Social Science. i've had HIST1(Philippine History), HIST2 (Asian History), HIST100 (World Civilizations), and now HIST114 (Philippine Culture). wow. now that's a lot of history. add PI100 (Philippine Institution focusing on the works of Jose Rizal) to that too. so i hope you're not wondering why i am as patriotic as i am.

there's something about going back to time and actually focusing on how life was back then during pre-colonial and the colonial period. there's this patriotic feeling of pride whenever i study about our own Katipuneros fighting for our freedom for the love of our country. of course, there's the pain i feel when i learn about the hostilities of our colonizers. sometimes i blame them for the state of our country at present but what has already happened in the past cannot be changed. instead, we should learn and grow from it. it's amazing how nationalism can instill so much strength and braveness into the hearts of Filipinos. we have come a long way, didn't we? the Edsa I and Edsa II... we have already united twice as a nation to work for the better of our country. i hope we continue to work together that way.

as for Gail the History buff, yes, i enjoy my history classes a lot. i got to visit a lot of historical places and museums all throughout the 4 history classes and i am now an official lover of museums and historical sites. nothing beats stepping into a museum/historical site because i feel like it's like stepping into another time. isn't that cool?

law school or not?

i'm pretty shy to admit but i think i want to go for law school but i lack belief in myself. i have a hard time in math and i'm not the smartest kid in town but yes, i think i want to go to law school. doesn't matter if i don't get into UP Law (maybe in my dreams) or Ateneo Law. San Beda looks pretty good to me and they're topnotchers too at the BAR exam. i don't want to open up this subject to anyone yet, not even my parents because i don't want people to expect too much from me. in the end when i change my mind about law school, i don't want to disappoint people around me and having people believe in you in ways you can never imagine is too overwhelming that it would scare me to fail.

but yes, i am beginning to feel the passion for law. i still have 2 years to go (if i graduate on time hehe) and a lot more time to think about law school. whichever way i go, i hope i will be happy with the decisions i make.

God help me.